A letter for you

This is for you.

This is a letter for you, who have meant so much in my early stage of life. If you read it, you will probably never EVER do that. But still… If…

I love you. Not like a boyfriend / girlfriend type of love, nether a mommy / daddy kind. But I love you as my friend. My sister, my best friend.

We were small kids back then, before everything else happened. But to be by your side and play in the woods, create our own imagination world… was the second best thing I knew back then.

When everyone else did not want to go outside when it was raining, we did. We played, laugh, and cried together. We were ourselves.

The best thing I knew was the trust I had to you. To know you will always be there for me.

And you need to know,

 You can still trust me.

Then we fought and broke contact. After some heavy months I soon accepted the fact that you had changed and you wanted to live a normal life. Forget the old one and everyone in it.

Sometimes, it was hard. I stalked you on facebook, saw your happy face in a picture with strangers, saw the comments when you wrote “MY BEST FRIEND” and tagged someone else that me.

I wanted to be in your life, wanted you to tell me your problems… I wanted you to be my best friend again.

And the years passed…

Then I decided to leave you behind to. With a heavy heart I took my own path, followed my own decisions and never looked at you profile picture again.

You were gone, and I could not reach you….

Three years past, and one day I got an message, It was from you. You said sorry and I cried. You probably don’t know how much that long message meant to me. It gave me peace and I knew you cared. You took time from your life, to send me a message. That meant so much!

We still haven’t seen each other in four and a half year. And even if I never will see you again, you have to know. I never gave up on you.

You were the first one to shape me to the person I’m today. And I love you for that.

You will always be my first best friend. And I will never forget you.  

Because you are more worth than diamonds and that is something you just can’t give away. 

Love

Someone that can't leave you alone ~ sorry